My mother told me there would be days like this.
Days when, no matter how sure of yourself you are or have been, the doubt creeps up on you. This doubt, this dark force, causes you to feel inadequate in the most unsettling ways. You wonder if you have come this far just to liquify and evaporate, crashing in your entirety on the shore under your feet. The ebb and flow of the waves will consume you out to sea. Significant and insignificant all at once. A piece of a whole. You wish, you wonder.
You may feel completely alone. Maybe you have always felt completely alone. You may think that you are not worth it. You may believe that you will never find what you are looking for.
I promise you that you will find it, but more often than not, this takes time. And it is the waiting that is heartbreaking, because you may feel that everyone has forgotten about you in the meantime.
And then you might remember that the dark days are what you make of them, and there is always light at the end of the tunnel. Sometimes this light appears in places or in faces where you would least expect it.
To those who are feeling lost today (and this is every bit for me as it is for you)… Hang in there, remember to remember that this world is for you. You are very Lucky. Even if you don’t see it right now. Even on your darkest days.
With my heart,