(This photo was captured a year ago this time of late winter, when the floral scent here is so heavily laden in the air, it permeates your dreams.)

I'm a bit delayed for this, a week or so, but I must say thank you to the universe and to the powers that be, for this otherworldly experience. It is approaching the two year anniversary since I arrived to the west coast for the first time, to begin this new phase of my life and follow my dreams.

The reason I pen this now, after much deliberation, is because this is a year of great change (for all of us); I can feel it in my bones. Now more than ever, it is an integral time to consider what to carry with us to the future for the purposes of growth and expansion... and what no longer serves us, what is best left behind for the past to swallow.

That being said, I am going to be progressing forward in a novel way from times of previous, to pursue endeavors more on path with my true calling. This work will involve the further leaving of my old ways of thinking, former life, and former self behind. Although saying goodbye is always bittersweet (for it was once a part of me)... I am more so looking forward to becoming the change we wish to see in the world around us.

I am not afraid of what the future holds. And in fact, the longer I wait in this interval of anticipation, all the more the hunger for transformation rises within me. And so deeply my longing for it stirs that I become something else entirely.

Thank you Brian for the unconditional love and support on this crazy journey. I couldn't have done this with anyone else. I look forward to the magic we will experience together in the coming year. Thank you for inspiring me everyday to be the best version of myself I can be.

Here's to a better world for all of us. Happy New Year.
 

(à bientôt)

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Posted by Leanna - Sunday, January 8, 2017 - 12:13pm


"The time has come," the Walrus said,
"To talk of many things:
Of shoes--and ships--and sealing-wax--
Of cabbages--and kings--
And why the sea is boiling hot--
And whether pigs have wings.

Calloo-Callay!

We'll live today--

Like cabbages and kings!"
--Lewis Carroll 

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"There are times to stay put, and what you want will come to you,

and there are times to go out into the world and find such a thing for yourself."
--Lemony Snicket

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The time has come.  

Thank you for the constant support you have shown me over the years.  
I couldn't have come as far as I have without your love.  

Stay tuned for beautiful works of mine in the making.  
I hope to surprise myself above all else.  
In the meantime, if you like, you may find glimpses of me here,
amidst places of secret. 

See you soon.
--Leanna

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Posted by Leanna - Saturday, January 7, 2017 - 1:19pm


"
This
is 
the 
one 
that
changed 
everything.

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A new relationship is about to blossom.  You will be blessed.

9.  16.  17.  22.  25.  46.  

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Posted by Leanna - Friday, January 6, 2017 - 7:38am


əˈpifənē/

(noun)

the manifestation of christ to the gentiles as represented by the magi (matthew 2:1–12).

the festival commemorating the epiphany on january 6.

a manifestation of a divine or supernatural being.

a moment of sudden revelation or insight.

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Posted by Leanna - Friday, January 6, 2017 - 1:11am


(A subject of reverie I've been meaning to touch upon for some time now.)

"The dream images representing the father are many: god; bull; giant; tyrant; executioner; devil; pan; older man; male leader figure; older male rival; holy man or priest; dominating boss; wizard; wise old man; the sun– and of course, your father.

The father archetype is partly about how we feel about being capable, productive, and creative in the outer world. It is about protectiveness and strength, about know-how and knowledge of the world.  It may show how we deal with authority or those we see as having power.

In a personal sense, it echoes what sense you have of being supported or undermined by your background of life experience and parents. So although it involves your parents, it is much wider than that. For instance it also includes how you relate to your own life process.  Do you feel secure that life upholds you and supports, or do you feel life is constantly a chaotic and meaningless accident within which you can easily get fatally ill or killed?  Does life uphold or seek to destroy you?  Or is life completely impersonal and uncaring?"

For a woman dreamer, your connection with the father image (your initial experiences or memories involving an older male influence) is of utmost importance in the way you relate in relationships; and also the manner in which you cope to the world outside the life of the home.  The negative father image involves domination, abuse of power and authority, or neglect of the child's needs.  Conflict of this type can lead to feelings of not being loved or capable of love.  

These dreamful intimacies represent the childhood desire to possess, own, or be loved by father.  It might also demonstrate gaining power over a father figure-- someone you may have needed support or love from and never receiving it.  As a child, one feels they might do anything to gain this love-- and so these feelings you have burdened all your life bleed through to the subconscious.  

field notes

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Posted by Leanna - Wednesday, January 4, 2017 - 8:12am


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"A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step."

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Posted by Leanna - Sunday, January 1, 2017 - 10:25pm


"I didn't mean to take up all your sweet time,
I'll give it right back to you one of these days.
I said, I didn't mean to take up all your sweet time,
I'll give it right back one of these days.
And if I don't meet you no more in this world, 
then I'll meet you in the next one.
Don't be late" //

happy new year!
capture by escobarts.com
with poetry by jimi hendrix
featuring leanna banana
as 'voodoo chile'

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Posted by Leanna - Sunday, January 1, 2017 - 12:12pm


Masked Mermaid in Black by Salvador Dali, 1939

 

Dreams that take place underwater explore bringing into awareness what is unconscious...  Looking within yourself and exploring what goes on beneath the depths of your conscious self.  A hidden, secret growth or development that is occurring beyond the scope of your knowledge or understanding.  

 

Mermaids may symbolize love or the urge for intimacy arising from within.  The link between deep unconscious forces and the waking self.  The inner image or desire of womanhood or motherhood.  

 

Eggs may represent new life or the female ovum, respectively.  Purses may represent the female anatomy in this way.  Blood may also symbolize fertility.  Something wrapped in seaweed may show you something you hold dear, or could be something you are currently struggling with (an inner tangle of emotion or feeling).  A shark may symbolize the deepest unknown aspects of your subconscious, or alternatively, something you fear.  

 

(keep dreaming)

 

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Posted by Leanna - Thursday, December 29, 2016 - 8:50am


(i'm seeing ghost.  red water, red water, red water, chase them away.)

"The Masque of the Red Death" by Odilon Redon, 1883

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Posted by Leanna - Sunday, December 25, 2016 - 3:10am


'Pretty as a wedding day / for what I wouldn't give / to be the chime inside your bell / or the whisper of white petals falling / the ones that graze your shoulders / or kiss your dreaming lids / they that vanish in the pale of your skin /
I swear I do, I fit right in' //

thank you Gustavo Rojas //
poetry of sleepless nights

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Posted by Leanna - Saturday, December 24, 2016 - 9:21pm