Mad Girl's Love Song
Hello there, it's certainly a pleasure to make your acquaintance.
I am Human.
You are the most beautiful thing that I've ever seen. Maybe perhaps we could fall in love, want to? I'll be yours and you'll be mine, we can speak those sweet words to one another but please keep in mind that they are only temporary. We can make all the promises in the world to one another, but they won't seem to mean anything because eventually I will hurt you and you will hurt me. We will inevitably cause one another pain, we will inevitably crush the heart and soul of the other without meaning to or even understanding why. We can attempt to understand the method in which the other is familiar with love, the method in which the other has experienced love and is able to comprehend it, and we will nurture that love that exists within the other for a little while before we decide that we've had enough with unbiased understanding. You don't really know love, you don't know the first thing about it, I will say. I will make you feel more vulnerable than you have felt since you can't remember when. My words will be like a vice to your head and to your heart, praying on your mind, making you feel like less of a human being all the while reminding you that you have no right to feel the way you do. Our existence as we know it will be nothing more than head games and tears. I will suffocate and manipulate you, I will elevate you just enough to bring you crashing down.
I am Fear. This is all I can promise you.
As for the rest of it, you won't feel complete without me. This may sound like a trick, and it very well may be, however the fact remains that I am the only other being that you have ever really tried for in your life. You will not only dwell on this fact; it will become you. Our childhood together will remain a memento of sleeping under the midnight sky while our bodies intertwined within sleeping bags and tents alike. You knew that it was possible to love me more completely, but couldn't for the life of you comprehend how. Closeness is all that mattered to us then, and very little has changed despite the fact that we're all grown up now. Though we're considerably more brokenhearted and lonely, the fact remains that within our loneliness, we've always had each other. Always. Even from before the spark that first ignited the stars from which lifetimes and aeons gathered and disbursed, from a time before our souls met. So we journeyed on in search, unconcerned for the time and space that separated us, but wholly cavalier regarding the long, hard journey ahead. The only semblance of hope for our souls, like twins separated at birth, was the inkling that its other half existed somewhere amongst the universe. That was enough. And when you can't sleep at night, it's because you would have felt my arms around you and it will devastate you when you awake without me. You will recall the way I brushed the hair from your eyes and whispered into your ear, while the cadence of my words compelled you to forget everything that you've ever known. You will swear off sustenance because the lingering taste of my kiss is enough to satiate you for days on end. You will look at our crayon-colored pictures and grow homesick. You will recollect me in fragments scattered throughout your day. When you remember the way in which I looked at you, celestial bodies will collide and burn and the earth will crumble below your feet. You will fall. You won't ever forget me.
I am Love. I will promise you forever.